Being "Mom" can be exhausting sometimes. There's no 9-5 work schedule for Mom. It's a 24-hour job and my "work" comes with me on vacation. There's also no real sense of accomplishment. I clean something and two minutes later it's dirty again. I cook a meal and a few hours later it's time to cook another one. A lot of the work goes unnoticed and occasionally taken for granted.
I can't even take a shower without the door knob being jiggled at least once to see if I locked it and there is usually an attempt to have a conversation through the door. I try to check my email and immediately get asked for a glass of milk, two minutes later the milk is all over the floor and ottoman, and a few minutes after cleaning up that mess I get a request to watch a movie. I just want a few minutes alone in my head without a little munchkin voice in my ear!!!
So this morning I let the tv babysit (Yeah, that's right, I said it. Give me the bad mom award if you wish.), I put on some music, and I lost myself in painting the crown moulding for the kitchen.
I finally had a minute to think about where life could be leading our family and what it is that I want. My husband and I have both been thinking about the future a lot lately and it can be difficult to explain to him what I want when I haven't had a chance to really gather my thoughts and put those feelings into words. We still aren't anywhere close to making any decisions. There are so many different things that we want for our future and they all have their pros and cons. Even if we do make a decision, there are still many outside factors that could change things but it would at least be nice to have a goal to work towards.
So that's where I'm at. I usually keep this blog about crafts, decorating and recipes with some photos of my cute kid thrown in but today I needed to vent I guess. :) Plus, sometimes when my blogger friends share some of their personal struggles, it's something that I am going through as well and it's comforting to know that I'm not alone. So maybe someone out there will read this and relate to something that I have said and to that person: I give an exhausted sigh and say, "You are not alone my friend."
Amen! This is a great place to vent a little, and I so relate!! I'm taking a big deep breath as I go into summer vacation and will be the driver, cook, housekeeper, activity director, etc. for two boys. I hope you got a few minutes of peace and quiet :)
ReplyDeleteI know exactly where you are. I was feeling the same way a few years back and Barnabas and I decided to send me back to school. Vent as you need and dream about whats next with your hubby. It's helpful on days like today and it will also bring you two closer together.
ReplyDeleteTrust that I understand how soothing it can be to shout into the abyss sometimes. You are not alone, and you are doing a spectacular job in balancing everything on your plate.
ReplyDeleteThanks ladies! It's so nice to know that I am not the only one!
ReplyDeleteLove your blog Megan! = )
ReplyDeleteI know this post is nearly two years old, but I'm sure it still holds true for you and I think all mothers can relate.
ReplyDeleteWhen my third child was born, my eldest hadn't quite turned 3 years old. Now my eldest is 5 and a half and my youngest is 2 and a half, and life is starting to get easier, but it is still a 24 hour job and always will be. There has barely been a night in the last 5 and a half years that I haven't gotten up at least once to one or more of my children, there's never a sick day (no matter how sick you get), and, gee, I don't even bother closing the bathroom door when I am having a shower. I find talking on the phone is the worst, because suddenly they all decide they need my attention when I am on the phone. And, yes, TV has been has been very helpful over the years.